Cold Liver and Failure

Historical journal entry from 9-16-12

Introspective Question - Why can’t I throw away food?  It has to be the “sit-there-until-you-eat-it” mentality left over from childhood.  (A 40-year-old memory of cold liver just made me shiver.)  I chose not to eat any tater rounds with my dinner (thumbs up).   When I got full, I removed the rest of my bun and left some of my salad (thumbs up).  I was too full to finish my salad, but mindlessly ate a tater rounds as I cleared the table (thumbs down).  How much sense did that make?  Note to self – uneaten food needs to be thrown in the trash, not used to trash me.

The highpoint of the day is that Joshua and I went to Ozark Fitness!  (Thank you, Lord, for Joshua, my own personal fitness trainer!)  We walked on a tread mill, Joshua showed me how to do the circuit weight machines, and I tried the stair stepper and an elliptical machine.  Some of the weight machines felt good to do – Wow!  Who knew?   At the gym, the pull up machine was part of the circuit series.  I have never been able to do a pull up in my life.  At first I said no to even trying, but I decided that I was going to try knowing I would fail, and I did fail. Today, 9.16.12, I am too heavy and too weak to pull up my weight.  One day I will be able to do a pull up, and it will be a huge victory.  Today victory was not being afraid to fail.